Gonna take an anti drama break….

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Week 2 – Baby Girl

This one deserves another post now that Baby Girl is 15 years old now….

What I needed

I got what I needed, what I wanted evaded me as darkness hides from light.
And I’m so damn satisfied.
Sometimes waiting and wanting only delivers wanting and waiting.
Like the feel of memory foam slippers fresh purchased from Brook Stone,
so is it to receive that which fills and fulfills gaps unnoticed.
Wants seemingly stand upright, broad shouldered, and in front of needs; doing their best to shield sights eye
While in the dessert alone, hungry, thirsty, tired, carrying my exhaustive portion of hopelessness my consciousness could only ask for a few dribbles of water to soften my cracked lips, cotton mouth, and dry eyes.
What I received was a way out. Indeed it was better than water.
Today’s receipt of every herb, spice, and seasoning one could think of touched my mind and soul in such a way as to turn on the switch of my realization that I could now prepare a dish of any kind. Yeah, a little of this and a little of that will do.
It was what I needed… While not sure what “arrow root”is or how or when its use would be justified, it will lie in wait for the essential moment when I need it.
Heck, I might just find use for it so that I don’t have to wait or want…
My life has its abundance of opportunities to deliver savory flavor to lives of those in my purview and yes, even beyond and I will do so now with astute confidence.
I will take precious time to smell the aromas and taste what’s missing and carefully reach onto the spice shelf for whats missing…
Correction… I will carefully reach onto the newly introduced spice shelf for whats needed,
Being precise in both delivery and quantity by a careful and loving hand I will decorate
The flavors of life with a passion for healing, love, happiness, contentment, peace, success, and joy.
For my service my requirement is simply to be loved in return.
Johnnie Moore
08/20/2013

Now what???

You see sometime life feels like waves of heat and cold alternating to confuse your senses. Yeah, it’s strange how things play themselves out and how you can find grace and peace in the fiery center of an angry swarm of yellow jackets, and yet sit restless in a field of soft grass spotted with cute daisies with a turquoise sky well bedded with fluffy white clouds.

We want what we want, we see what we see and we feel what we feel. Reality is bent towards our perception and seems to flow just outside of what we really desire. We’ve, at least I’ve, chased an alternate reality for some time hoping to align these parallel truths.

My efforts are only rewarded in spots and moments where my desires and my reality cross. It is these moments that I yearn for, push for, live for, and for which I strive. You see they keep me going like the perfect stroke of the golf club that produces the perfect sound of ball and sweet spot coming together for that ear and eye candy drive that sails straight and true landing ever so softly in the center of the fairway. Like the joke among friends that seems to grow with each contribution from loved ones. It just seems to string along so gracefully keeping you bent over or bent back in laughter barely finding breath between chuckles. Like the quiet cup of joe in the morning when all is still quiet and uninterrupted and you are on time, hell ahead of time for once. Like the smile of a daughter just before an embrace who wants nothing and is expecting nothing except to be happy to see you.

As stated, I live for these moments and I love them. I only wish I could string more of them  together consecutively.

One day I will… One day I will…

Monsters

Yep

My Mind Is My Battlefield

True, so true…

The Truth

Truth is true regardless of what you believe or accept. Always try to fully understand and accept real truth.

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Baby Girl

Baby Girl

Soulful, sweet, thoughtful, considerate, focused, loved, full, empowered… need I say more?

We’ve done a great job thus far with this angel sent from heaven.

Week 2 – Baby Girl

Last weeks topic was somewhat heavy and this one is a bit delayed (Sorry about that). So here we go…

 

My baby girl just turned 14 and I’m a bit stressed about it. Ok…

 

  • Yes she is an A student
  • Yes she is very intelligent and articulate
  • Yes she is somewhat naive
  • Yes she’s growing up in burbs
  • Yes, she has been a bit protected and sheltered

 

Yeah, she missed out on the opportunities to have fist fights, get burglarized, serve as a whiteness to shootings, have helicopters fly over her house looking for her friends, etc… So my plan actually worked which was to do everything possible to have my kids not to have to grow up in the environment that I did. So for some, her life is normal, to me it’s night and day to what I was used to when I was growing up.

 

Baby girl has it so good and I like it like that…

 

I did my best to frame this question so that you would know with what I am faced… So here is the question… At what age should I allow my daughter to date? And when we go on her first date together am I going to be able to restrain myself from thoughts of what I was thinking when I was this young guys age? Trust me I had no pure thoughts… or if they were pure, they were purely sexual in nature.

 

I have friends that have daughters that are already dating (OMG!) and others that have daughters much older than mine that aren’t allowed to date and they are dang near in college. Here is what I was thinking:

 

  • Only after this little conniving punk gathers up the testicular fortitude to reach out to me and share his interest and intentions concerning my daughter I would:
    • Establish a formal interview with him and his family – Gotta see his peeps in order to gather an understanding of his families values
    • Run a full back ground check to include finger prints, blood work, etc… – No explanation needed for this one
    • Request grades beginning in elementary – I’m looking for trends damit
    • Get formal recommendations from at least 2 teachers and 2 neighbors – a cross sections validation of character is important in any assessment
    • Call in my brothers (both of them) and we act out (not really acting though) the Bad Boys scene (I’m serious) in its entirety, guns (big guns) and all.
    • Once the above checks out I was thinking that “we” could go on her first date to a rated “G” movie. – Not sure about this one because theaters are still pretty dark even though I would be sitting between the two of them. I cant have them playing footsies of even worse sharing space.

 

For the record so far she hasn’t shown a “real” interest in dating, but I aint no fool by a long shot. I know that she is exposed to much more than she is willing to share with me. I know that all girls keep secrets. And while it would be good to get feedback from some of the guys, I am really looking forward to the ladies being very frank and clear. I mean go ahead and open up and share what was really going through your head between 14 and 17.

 

So back to the questions:

 

  1. At what age should I allow my daughter to date?
  2. And when we go on her first date together am I going to be able to restrain myself from thoughts of what I was thinking when I was this young guys age?

 

This should make for a very interesting topic this week. LOL J

Week 1

Week 1 –

 

So last week was an interesting week to say the least. It started with about 30 hours of travel to Mumbai, India. It’s interesting to me that poverty is relative. I once thought that it was clear what was poverty. My perception has changes after traveling over the years and was really cemented after last week. The truth is again, that poverty is relative.

 

When I was younger I remember so many immigrants to the US from Cuba, Haiti, Jamaica, and many other Caribbean and Latin American countries would come to the US and look down on African Americans in south Florida. This was so annoying to me at the time. How could they come to the US looking for a handout and look down on those to whom they were looking for help and a better life? As a minority myself it was also a sore spot as we already felt as if we had to fight the system and “the man”. Now we also had to feel pressure from new comers. I felt as if we (African Americans) were getting pressure from all side. This prompted some very interesting balancing acts in terms of intercultural relationships. To me it was a delicate dance. My upbringing demanded that I treat all people fairly, while my environment sent a very clear, yet very different message.

 

The message coming from all sides was to find your small group of like people and stick with them… Well this proved to be very difficult for many reasons. Just a few examples are food, music, and values. It was inescapable. I loved the diversity in food and I’ve always loved music. So this was simply impossible and so I found myself vacillating from one group to the other ever so slightly changing very small characteristics in order to be better accepted. All the while making sure to represent my own culture in a positive way.

 

So back to poverty thing… Immigrants would judge us and I hated it. My visit to several 3rd world countries has enlightened me to this dynamic a bit. In many of the countries that I have visited, there is no opportunity, there is no running water for all, there is no abundance of food, education, power, etc… In India there isn’t the same support from the central government with things like garbage removal and disposal. So in some not so affluent and even some affluent areas, garbage just piles up. Many Indians couldn’t fathom the life that we have here in the US. There is no welfare system so if you don’t have, you just don’t have. In speaking to one of my colleagues who is from India he carefully explained to me that people go out and work all day, if they find work, for a hand full of rice and a couple of vegetables.  Imagine that…. A day’s work may give you enough to eat for a day, maybe. God forbid you have a family and children. They couldn’t imagine walking into any of our grocery stores and seeing rows and rows of food just sitting there. In Brazil they have the “favelas” where people simply have made homes out of scraps over the years. Many are from 2nd or 3rd generation born and raised in favelas. Again, no running water, no electricity (except in some cases where they steal it from nearby power lines), and no plumbing in many of these countries.

 

If a person in one of the above mentioned situations had the opportunity to visit the US and see the very clear difference in life here they would be breathless and in awe.

 

So back to the point I made earlier about childhood friends in South Florida who were immigrants. I have a much better understanding of their lack of empathy for our complaining. In the US we have so much and feel as if we have so little. Poverty is in fact relative and certainly a matter of perspective. As Americans we really need to take a step back and simply inhale the fresh air, jump in the shower and feel the hot running water, make a PB&J and “Shut the Front Door”. We have so much and we don’t even realize it. This is why many come from other countries and outperform us in general in studies as well as willingly working the “Three Jobs” doing the things that many of us look down upon. Yes, call me what you want, but its real. We are so blessed here in the US and we, all of us, need to stop complaining and get up and “get’er done”… Seriously…

 

Looking forward to some hefty comments and discussions this week on this one… Please take a minute to visit the blog and post your thoughts.

 

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Johnnie’s thoughts …

 

Many of you may already know me well and many not so much… Some professionally, some very personally. I’m sure that there are friends of old that have past memories of who I once was (omg…). Well, this is just a means for me to do something that I’ve thought about for some time. I feel that I have much to share and have put it off for so long. Well here we go.

 

I was inspired by my brother who actually took a very good stab at a 365 day blog. Mine will be weekly and not daily. However topics will be broad and will have much room for healthy debate and discussion. Topics will vary and cross all spectrums to include faith, wealth, philosophy, hate, love, etc… It will be fun!

 

I will post on my blog and then have it linked so as to also post to FB and Twitter. While I can’t promise a response on FB, I will be very engaged on the blog site itself. I will respond to questions openly and candidly. My responses will be candid, raw, and respectful. Folks who choose to also engage in the discussion to post responses, comments, or challenges on the blog site.

 

The site is www.johnnierjr.com

 

With this blog I have no expectations other than to possibly help someone. There is no hidden agenda and no specific purpose other than to help someone. Many may not agree with my perspective or sentiments. Many topics will be nuanced and will allow for many perspectives outside of my own. I am hoping that many will check in and join me in some of the discussions.

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The first one will follow tonight. I invite all to join me.

 

 

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It’s apparent that today is truly a good day. I’m not at liberty to share some of the whys, but I am will to say this:

 

“Trouble has found its pace in the far reaches of the universe, however it is clear to me that it is now a far off and that balance, and truth, and righteousness currently prevail in my space. They fed me plentifully with patience and peace. I’m not moved to do or to say, only to be. And right now being is soothing to the soul. Being allows me to exist in the space that has been designed ever so carefully and specifically for me. My space is comfortably suited to allow me to engage, and to absorb, and to express without the consideration for external contaminants. I’m at peace and existing far beyond existence and I love it!”

 

So with that said; farewell for today…

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JRMJR

Thinking Me

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Political me

The following was posted on FB relevant to president Obama’s announcement of his support of gay marriage.

“The dogmatic and hard line approach on some of these things are reminiscent of a purist nature that historically has been the very basis for ethnic cleansing, religious persecution, rating women as second class citizens, etc… All the horrors of human history have been based on a self centered entitlement to and a feeling of obligation to impose ones will and beliefs upon another. I say live and let live. What does allowing people to “marry” in this case take away from all other at a practical and functional level. The answer is clear… “absolutely nothing”. I think people should free themselves of the tension that comes from being entitled to control or deny another a privilege. Although I don’t understand how the heck a man could want another man, I refuse to get between them… yes “pun” intended!”

Your thoughts???

There’s nothing to it, b…

There’s nothing to it, but to do it!
If you don’t do it, it won’t get done!

It’s that simple…

Baby Girl….. Aaaahhwwwww….

I really Love my Baby Girl!!!

 

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On the plane and i cant wait to get home.

The Right Stuff

Beautiful Sky

It’s sometime amazing that people are always looking for external means to address a real internal root cause. Is this really possible?

Hello world!

This is very new to me, but I am diving in…

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